Chapter 10

Today is the day. Yousef, his mother and apparenty two of his sisters will be coming over for the shufa.

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nervous, even if I don't wanna marry the guy, Im still nervous.

Sultan has been more than perfect and supportive, he knows my reasons and respects them and that just makes me love him so much more. He has also been talking to me all day, it seems as though hes afraid of losing me.

Malak:Ghada w Reema byjoun b3d kitha 5 minutes 3shan y9al7oun sh3rii w my makeup, fa la tst'3rb if I dissapear.-5:12pm-

Sultan: Im sure you're a stunner bdoun makeup, la t5aleenhum yzaynouk ktheer 3ad you're beautiful enough and I dont want him staring at you for long.-5:12pm-

Sultan: No, don't leave me.-5:12-

Malak: Inshallah 3mii i wont put alot. W I'll try to keep texting you bss ma a3rf wallah.

We kept chatting up until Ghada and Reema came and snatched my phone from me right as I told Sultan enhum w9lu w e7tmal kbeer ys7boun jwalii. I was right.

We went over to my dresser and lfuni away from the mirror 3shan ma ashouf shaklii.

First it took Reema about thirty minutes to perfect my hair into light waves, then about another ten minutes to get my hair right by pinning the front of it to the back.

B3dha Ghada estlmt wjhii, hatha kla w ana ma m3ii jwal wla agdr ashouf shaklii.

Her hands swiftly and expertly worked on my face and her face was deep in concentration.

After about twenty minutes she was done.

Malak: Yay w a5eeraaan, yallah w5ruu abii ashouf shakliii!

They moved away so I can turn around in my chair, I turned and got teary eyed,

I looked incredible.

Al7mdella I was granted with good looks naturally but, wow.

My makeup was perfected, little face makeup, just a bit of concealer on my blemishes, then a bit of bronzer conturing my face making my good features pop, my eye makeup consisted of winged eyeliner and a bit of eyeshadow in my crease my coordinate with my dress and mascara. And finally, bold red lipstick rested on my lips

My hair was lightly waved, split in the middle, and the front was pinned back.

I felt like a princess going to meet her prince, too bad I wasn't going to meet my prince.

I turned to ghada and reema and gave them a big hug, i squeezed onto them for dear life as I tried my best not to cry.

I looked at phone, oh wow its already 7:20 w al'9youf are coming at 8.

I opened whatsapp and found Sultan has texted me. I replied bdoun nfs just cause my heart was seriously breaking that it isnt him that is coming to ask for my hand in marriage.

W klam Fai ja b rasii "Awl ma dra enna feeh a7d jay y56bk almfrou'9 fz w ja hu y56b, theres no point in waiting." She told me.

I tried to put everything to the back of my head and just try to get tonight over with b5eer.

8 came quick since I sat with my mom trying to calm her down as she was having a panic attack that everything was gonna go wrong.

Shes actually nervous for me, she actually wants this to happen. She talked to me about how etha ma art7tla Im not mjboura to do anything and that I should always remeber that.

The doorbell rang and Mishari came down from upstairs in his thoub and '3tra, awww 7beebi.

My mom shooed me upstairs to get dressed.

I headed up to my room and my nerves came back, Ghada and Reema helped me get into my dress without messing up my hair, allahuma enna shufa mu zwaj.

I looked in the mirror, this time fully dressed and ready.

Ghada&Reema: Mashallaaaaaah wallah bynhbl yousef!

I sighed and sat on my bed with them forcing myself to not go near my phone. After about twenty minutes Fai came upstairs and told me that it's time for me to go downstairs, oh god im so nervous.

Fai lightly pep talked me w e7na nazleen, tgoulii encouraging stuff. Wallah ale5t n3ma!

We got to 'mjls al7reem' d5lt w slmt 3la 5altii and his sisters, zeenhum wallah they look so nice.

His mom doesn't look old she looks like one of those younger moms, one of his sisters would be about 19 esmha Lamia and the other maybe 16 this one is Yara. Klhum jameelat mashallah.

I sat and we had small talk, ys2lounii what university I go to and we got to know eachother, I got along with Lamia really well. And I talked with 5alti Shatha b3d.

Until my mom and her looked at eachother and 5altii broke the ice by saying. "Malak mama shra2yek td5leen mjls alrjal al7een?" 

I nodded not knowing what to say, I looked at my mom and she just smiled nodded like go ahead. 

I left mjls al7reem and made my way to mjls alrjal I breathed in a huge breath before I went in, and I kept saying in my head, dont trip. dont trip.

Awl ma d5lt and my eyes reached him I tripped, I FREAKING TRIPPED!

Hu gam mn mkana bsr3a w gal "bsmella 3leek" bss bayn 3la 9outa enna y'97k 7ta bdoun ma a6al3 3leeh. Ufff fashlaaa!

He held my hand and helped me up, I stood up straight and looked at him for the second time, this time I really looked at him.

He. Was. Handsome. 

Very very very very very handsome omg.

He flashed me a smile and said "5n aw9lk llkanb we don't want you falling again" 

Omg his english.

I laughed and he held my hand the whole way to the couch, b3den jlst w hu fk ydii 3shan yjls next to me.

We started talking, not normal swaleef though, he asks the wierdest questions that just make me die laughing before I answer them.

G3dna nsoulf and joke around for about five more minutes ella td5l umi w uma while we're both lauging again.

I turned to look at them w ebtsamat'hum shaga alwjh.

5ala said it's time for them to leave so we both got up but he stood there and I was going to make my way toward my mom w 5altii ella he whispers gbl ma amshii.

"Oh, and you look beautiful."

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Chapter 9

So today's Tuesday which means only two days left till the shufa it's weird that sultan never asked me about him which makes me more nervous.

Sultan:malak-2:37am-

Malak:3yunii

It only took him 5 minutes to reply

Sultan: what happened to that yousef guy? 

Malak:elshufa is on Thursday.

Sultan:uhaa

He didn't say anything after that 

I took a hot shower to take my mind of off things after I was done I heard my phone ring

Malak:hello

Fai: bsr3a elbsi bmrik now

She hung up before I said a thing 

Esh feiha?its still 12:00pm

I wore my Abaya an waited for her downstairs   

Malak:wsh 9ayyr?

Fai:lma abi a6l3 m3 o5tii lazm ykoun 9ayr shay?

Malak:ma adri kitha faj2aa dgeti elzbda ween ray7een?

Fai: nf6ur wen tben

Malak:mmm msht'hya za3tar w zeet

Fai:a7mad ru7 ta7liyaa

When we reached there we ordered and she finally spoke up

Fai: esh 9ar 3ala yousef?

Malak:ma 9ar shay he's coming in Thursday 

Fai:ee I know you told sultan about him 97?

Malak: ee 

Fai: esm3enii malak I'm not against you or sultan bl3aks in with you guys but Havent you ever thought that sultan mu mnjdh This whole love thing?

I cut her off and said 'Never!!'

4:3

Fai:5aleni akml,if he really loved you kan awl ma 56bk yousef gal erf'6i w ja 56bik hu w ma tdren ymkn rabi ybek tb3den 3ana! Enti fakri blklam elli glta w est5erii ahm shay!

Malak: enshallah.

After we were done she dropped me off at our house ma amdanii ajls zaii alnas w arwg ella Ghada w Reema da5leen albeet mashallah 3leehum w ygwmouni mn 3la alsreer.

Malak: hwwww wsh jayeekum? Alnas tgoul alslamu 3leekum!

Ghada: agouul goumii bss yallah lazm nrou77 alsouugg!

Malak: whaaat? Leeh?

Reema: Ya 4ka2 esh btlbseen llshoufa? 

Malak: ma adrii blageeli bl closet..

Ghada: LAA WALLAH? Agouuuul bss elbsii 3baytk e7na bnkoun t7t, 5 minutes wla b6l3 anzlk mn sh3rk!

Malak: you're so aggressivee! 

Reema: w you're so stupid! Feeh a7d ma yshtrii fustan llshoufa w bagii youmeeen? 

Malak:Anaa! Alzbda enzlu yallah blbs

They left my room and i quickly applied concealer and a tinted lip balm and wore my 3baya.

Nzlt 3ndhum w hum ysoulfoun m3 umii so i stayed 3nd al stair case w ft7t jwalii.

Sultan: Babe wsh btsween alyoum?-3:38pm-

Sultan: Shra2yek bukra n6l3 ana w enti? F6our '3ada elli tbeena!-3:52pm-

Sultan:Tra eshtgtlk wallah where are you? -4:01pm-

Malak: Haiii babee! Wallah knt jalsa ella yjoun Reema w Ghada w galuu bn6l3 alsoug!!-4:05-

Malak: Fouggga! Wallah i miss you too, ween tbii bss? :$-4:05-

Sultan: Hallaa wallah! Enti esh msht'hya w e7na nrou7! -4:06-

I was too occupied texting sultan ella someone grabs my elbow w drags me to the front door.

Ma asm3 ella "Nshoufk 3la 5eer 5altii!" 

Ghada let go of my elbow w klna d5lna alsyara ana rj3t ljwalii b3d ma soulfna shwaii.

W9ln alsoug and i told sultan enna im gonna leave my phone shwaii while we shop.

D5lna so many stores bss ma feeh shaii 3jbnii.

Ghada: 6ayb hatha?

She was holding a red full length dress that had a slit all the way up to my thigh.

Malak: La i have a dress like this a9ln.

W alyoum mr w e7na kitha, so we took a break w r7na nakl.

Reema:What does sultan think about b3d bukra?

Malak: Bayn 3leeh mt'9aayg bss y3ni he doesnt talk about it.

Ghada: a7 wallah lw ana mna bss

Malak: Im gonna go out with him tomorrow tra

Reema: t7seen umk twafg w bagii youm llshoufa?

Malak: Enshallah twafgg bgoulha b6l3 m3km cause im stressed about everything w bflm shawii w enshallah twafg.

Reema&Ghada: Enshallah!

We continued shopping w lma f8dna alaml d5lna a5r store.

Ana g3dt 3la alcushions mthl al3jouz w hum ydwrounlii.

Fj2a i hear Reema gasp

Reema: Malaaak omg shoufiii hathhaa!!

I walked towards her w I looked at what shes holding.

 

It was a long navy dress bss mu elli flowy, its straight on the figure, and its sequined, its hard to explain its so beautiful ma gd shft mthla.

I held on to it w i nodded a yes

Malak: Its so pretty oh my god.

Ghada: Omgg yjnnn!

Reema: ta5theena? 

Malak: Ee 6ab3aan yallah

I payed for the dress and we made our way out of the mall.

A beautiful dress shouldn't be wasted on an unpleasant occaision but oh well.

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Chapter 8

When I got home that night I thought to myself im so stupid cause I judged Sultan 3la 6oul, i was still jealous and mad bss glt bs2la 3shan ma akoun '6almta.

Malak-12:22am- Babe 9a7ii?

Sultan-12:23am- Maybe

I laughed and replied with 'kalb 5la9'

A couple of seconds later my phone lit up with the caller ID flashing Babezz, i smiled a huge smile and answered.

Malak: 7sbtkk naym haa?

Sultan: Anam w ana ma 7keetk zaii alnas alyoum? T7lmeeen!

Malak:wallah 7lm.

Sultan-laughing-: ush ush bss you know you love me

Malak: aa2 aa2 aa2 dont be too sure hapeepi

Sultan: mswyaaa thgllll, lets change the subject. Enbs6tiii alyoumm? 

Malak: ee mrraaa i had fun wallaah! 

Sultan: al7mdellaa 

Malak:6ayb sultan bs2lk sou2aal

Sultan: es2lii

Malak: Meen Lama alx?

Sultan-sigh-: How do you know her ya Malak?

Malak: No! How do you know her? 

The jealousy sparked in me again, ma anlaam im so self concious and to hear his name tonight fe swaleef albnat lii 7g i get jealous and a bit mad.

Sultan: 6ayb ana ma knt abii agoulk 3shan ma tt'9aygeen wallah hatha hu alsbb alw7eed!

Malak:kml.

Sultan: Fa hathii Lama swtlii follow b twitter w I followed her back w she started sending me dms, shes being all flirty w ttmel7. Awl knt aslk lha bss tra wallah 9rt 7taa ma ard w i unfollowed her last night y3nii whatever you heard is probably lies believee me!

I felt hurt even though ma swa shaii hu bss leeh y5abeeh 3nii? What was i gonna do y3nii? 

Malak: Still sul6an kan gltlii, alzbda im gonna sleep bye

Gflt bwjha. Im so dramatic I know ugh bss thats just how I am, im not really really mad, mostly just hurt.

He texted and called, 7beeebii :( bss ana mswya m39ba ma rdeet 3leeh.

It was 3 am and I still couldn't sleep, a9ln by2thn Fajr greeb so i'll just stay up to pray.

I grabbed my phone and turned it on,

27 missed calls

Wow i opened my whatsapp and next to Sultans' name was 142 so 142 messages wj3

All of the texts were mostly "mn jdkk al7een m39baaa?" "Ana ma gltlk 3shan ms5raa" "Asf ma 3lmtk bss ma kan lh da3ii" the texts went on the same way him half apologizing to me half not even believing if im serious or not.

Malak-3:42am- 5la9 ensa almou'9ouu3 bss next time tell me whatever tra! 

Sultan-3:42- galbii 3wrnii, 5la9 i promise bgoulik kl shaii w enti b3d ma t5been mnii shaii.

Malak-3:43- Ana ma a5bii shaii bs wla yhmk!

I told him enna im going to sleep and i closed my phone, prayed fajr and literally went to sleep.

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Chapter 7

The first thing I did after I came from college was checking my phone I know it's been less than a day but I miss him and I didn't even text I called him 

Malak: heyy babbyy

Sultan: ahlan ahlaan you came back early today?

Malak: ee some classes got cancelled w ent where are you?

Sultan:I'm in the car Elyoum ma 3ndii classes fa r7t alshareka w al7een raj3

Malak:don't talk to me while driving.

Sultan: my baby t5af 3laayy?

Malak:akeed.

Sultan: don't worry 7a6ik 3ala el speaker 

Malak: are you sure?

Sultan: akthb y3ni?

Malak:ee ymkn,tra I miss you.

Sultan: 7beebtii entii wallah I miss you moree tell me when was the last time I saw you 

Malak: I know it was a long time ago! Bs esh aswi I just got my phone back enshallah kilha km sna and you'll get to see me everyday

Sultan:a8l enshallah,what are you doing tonight?

Malak: noufs house and you?

Sultan: ray7 ll 3yaal al7een

Malak:5ala9 I'll call you later w entbh while your driving I love youu

Sultan: I love you too byee!

 -

So I never told you guys how me and sultan got to know each other

 FLASHBACK-

We met on Path. Ew I know meeting on a social network is the worst but thats how it happened, there was a huge debate on a picture that was repathed thuma repathed and repathed eleen w9l 3nd Sultans friend Faisal, it was a stupid argument but I get the notifications since I posted the picture originally, one comment coming from Sultan alx caught my eye, he said something that made me go against his beliefs. So I replied and soon I was added to their huge debate.

In the end I won the stupid debate and ma ymr sa3a ella alagii Sultan alx wants to be your friend! -add friend- or -decline- I personally had no problem with having guys on my path, he wasn't the first so I added. 

So he would comment on some of my posts, and put emotions, I would sometimes too but usually i wouldnt.

He then followed me on twitter and from there we got close, he actually used the Dms b6ee2 whats your kik excuse on me. I was annoyed a tiny bit then but now I just laugh at it.-

 

Malaks mom: Malak 7beebtii 9art alsa3a 8 mta btrou7een 3ad! 

Malak: hww mama 3adii ma yjoun albnat a9ln ella 9 w Ghada shwaii w tmurnii.

Malaks mom: 6ayb Malak 7beebti esm3eeni

My heart clenched in happiness when she called me 7beebti.

Malak: smii mama.

Malaks mom: al5mees aljay byjoun ahl yousef llshoufa 

I forced a smile and told mama "Inshallah umii" 

She smiled looking happy and said gouleelii gbl ma trou7eeen 6ayb! 

Malak: '6ab3aan!' W kmlt lightlu waving my hair, I then applied a bit of bronzer, eye liner, mascara, and lipstick.

I put on my outfit which consisted of a floral skirt that reached under my knees, fhmtuu elli kitha lazg mu flowy? Like that and it was high waisted, and i paired it with a white blouse. I slipped on my heels just as my phone rang the caller ID flashing "Ghaddzuuuu" I answered.

Malak: Yo entii brra?

Ghada: ee im waiting yallah.

Malak: okk give me two minutess!

Ghada: alright yallah byee

Malak: byee

I headed downstairs and told my parents enuu im heading out w mama galt entbhii lnfskk.

Inshallaaah I said as I left.

 We reached Noufs house and slmna 3la albnat, there were girls I didnt know and girls mn aljam3a, w ate and danced a bit and youm t3bna jlsna klna w g3dna nsoulf.

Everyone was talking all at once and in the distance I heard a girl named Lama say : Omg shftii hatha Sultan alx elli agoulk 3lleeeeh? 

W her friend elli jnbha ashrt'lha elli estktii 9outk 3alii.

My mind went blank, how? Why? What? Hatha my Sultan, I look over at them and they're giggling and i heard her say w 'ee galii...' and she has a dreamy look in her eye.

Jealousy sparked in me and 3la 6oull i thought of Yousef. 

Oh Sultan, two can play this game.

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Chapter 6

I woke up the next day at 8:00 am feeling great, I haven't felt like this in months.

I got up did everything I had to do then I decided to open my phone.

I found 7 missed calls 5 conversations 

4 from sultan and 3 from Ghada 

A converstaion mn sultan and one from Ghada the other two where just broadcasts.

 

I opened ghadas conversation first 

Malakiii-11:36pm-

Eft7iii jwaalikk-1:45-

Esm3ii ni6la3 Elyoum? Mn zman 6l3tii enti-9:01am-

Heyyy baby okay bs ween?

Then I switched to sultans conversation 

A5eraan fta7tii your phone gd esh Ana mshtaglikkk I'll call okay?-11:00am-

Jawalik mgfll when you see this call me-11:05-

Babe wenkkk -20 minutes ago-

'Hey' I replied ,so cold I know.

'Esh feek? 9ayr shay malak e7kiii!'he replied in a matter of seconds 

'Sultan Ana en56bt'

Then I left my phone I really didn't want to know what he's gonna say.

I went downstairs there was fai and lamia

Lamia come give auntie malak a hug I said while she came running giving me a hug

'I miss you' lamia said while hugging me

I miss you too,where's mama fai?

Lamia:she in the living room

I went to the living room and I found fai watching tv alone 

'Kwais l7alik bgoulik shay' while sitting on the couch next to her 

'Guli'she said not paying attention to me

Malak: Fai Ana en56bt w I really don't know what to do.

Fai: malak tst'hblen and you'll leave sultan?!

Malak: Esm3eeni, ana ma glt bwafg lssa bss ennu jayeeni w i talked to ghada w she told me.... I told her everything ghada told me.

Fai: 97 klam Ghada ya Malak, maybe its not the best for you to get married on love w ttzjeen zwaj 6bee3ii, shoufeeni ana w Naif we're so happy w ma t3rfna 3la b3'9 ella b3d al5u6ba.

Tears started flowing down my face la sh3oureeyan as I said 'Bss faai I can't leave Sultan i'll regret it my whole life'

Fai: Shoufii Malak you should tell mama w baba yrdoun llnas 5br enhum yjoun llshoufa w enti shoufii etha ert7teela etwklii 3la allah w wafgi 3leeh w etha la refuse, mu 93ba wallah it'll be good for you believe me, it'll be a change. 

I went over to my parents room and talked to them telling them what Fai told me to say, mama said she'll call them tomorrow and plan a date for them to come over.

I was chilling with Lamia that whole day, no one can understand how much love I have for this girl, ttklm k2nha 3jouz mub bnt 3umra 3 sneen wallah

When the day reached its end I shut the door after Fai w Lamia and headed up to my room. I went to the bathroom took a shower then changed into my pjs I sat on my bed and grabbed my phone.

My phone blew up with notifications once I opened it, I opened the whatsapp app and headed to Sultans conversation.

En56bti?-8:01am-

Y3nii 5u6ba y3nii nas ybounk?-8:01am-

Malak? Mn jdk al7een?-9:00am-

Wow a54nii grb alsa3a astw3b klamk.-9:10am-

Malak? Btwafgeen w t5aleeni Malak?-9:11am-

Malak answer me -10:52am-

MALAK LEEH TGFLEEN JWALK MA 9DGT 3LA ALLAH TRJ3EENLII-10:57am-

La twafgeen Malak.-11:12am-

Dont do it-11:13am-

Enti glteeli 3shan anghr wla t36eeni 5br enk bttzwjeen?-11:16am-

You still didnt open your phone?-4:50pm-

F it 5la9 apparently you couldnt care less-8:36pm-

The texts stopped there, it was 11 now, should I reply? His words hit me hard to the point where I was practically bawling while reading.

Malak-11:28pm- Do you think I would leave you Sultan do you really think I would leave you? I wouldnt leave you lw esh I can't do it, they're convincing me slowly to marry him but I can't, im gonna accept to see him to please my parents! To let them think i forgot about you! Sultan i wouldn't leave you for the world? Mjnouna ana? I closed my phone cause too much pressure was put on me Sultan its not easy wallah it's not a7s bnfjrrrr! I couldn't take it anymore.

Malak-11:28- So la tsheel hm enni i would leave you ever, cause thats not happening anytime soon.

Sultan-11:30- Malaaak! Ma t9dgeen keef knt shayl hm w mt'9ayg, I cant ever imagine you with anyone other than me as cheeesy as it sounds, never leave me malak, if you do i'd lose my mind. Al7een byjoun yshoufunk?

My heart clenched as I read it, and they want me to leave himm? 

Malak-11:31- Over my dead body atrkk, km shahr w I couldnt live with myself, ee lazm ashoufa I pretty much have no choice.

Sultan-11:31-Ma abeeh yshoufik 6ayb, you're mine why would he get the privelage to see you? 

Malak-11:32- So my parents can completly get off my back and believe that I have no one else in my life.

Sultan-11:32- uffff bss shr6!

Malak-11:33- Esh alshar6 yallah?

Sultan-11:33- lazm t3w'9een y3nii hu yshoufik I get to see you soon too!

Malak-11:34- Looool inshallaah sooon<33

Sultan-11:34- 6ayb lazm anam 3ndi jam3a babe:( 

Malak-11:35- Naaam naaam yallaah gooodnightttt<333

Sultan-11:25- Nighty babee<3

I too fell asleep feeling like im flying on cloud nine.

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Chapter 5

Malak: ana? Ana jayeeni 56ab? My voice was shaking from crying so much.

Malaks mom: ee jayeenik 56ab

My moms coldness began to fade as she told me his name was Yousef Alx and that his dad has been working with my dad for years now, mama is begining to go back to normal and it's making me so happy that it brought me to tears.

Malaks dad: Malak 7beebtii mu lazm ta54een al8rar al7een rou7ii est5eeri w fkrii zeen w rj3eelna 5br ok ya mama? Don't rush into anything 7beebti 

He kissed my head w ra7 so I took his place next to mama.

I kissed her hand and asked for her forgivness, i've been living in hell without my mom these past few months.

Malaks mom: La t5aleeni at7sf enni rj3tlk jwalk Malak.

She kissed my cheek and handed me my phone I felt a huge weight fall off my shoulders as I went upstairs to my room.

I opened my phone and waited for the apple sign to move so I can hav acess to my phone.

Tboun al9ra7a ma shtagt l jwalii, I was too busy missing my mom to care about my phone.

My phone opened and all my missed calls popped up and all my kiks and twitter dms and mentions, whatsapps etc. 

I ignored all of those stuff and dialed Ghadas number by heart.

Ring

Ring

Ring

Ghada: MAAALAAK? 

Malak: Hiii 

Ghada: omg wsh 9ayr how do you have your phone?

I explained to Ghada everything that happened this past hour.

Ghada: Malak enti mta a5r mrra 7akeeti Sul6an? 

Malak: kitha 3 weeks, youm knt blmustshfa leeh?

Ghada: esm3eeni zeen Malak ma t7seen it's best if you move on? Enti 7beeteeh bdoun r'9a umk w abouk and that's the worst w ana akthr wa7da darya how much you guys love eachother but I think it's time to move on Malak wallah it's for the best w you'll thank me one day w jayek wa7d y56bk maybe kl hatha mn allah? Ennu it's best to leave sultan.

Malak: Ghada enti esh ga3da tgouleeeen? How could you say this? Hathaa sultan sultaaaaan! Keef a5aleeh w atzwj? Enti b3glk ga3da ttklmeeen I can't leave sultan I cant its impossible he's a part of me keef bswiii bdoun Sultan keef ya ghada b3eesh, i cant im not being dramatic I can't leave him he's my first and only love I cant do it.

Ghada: You can do anything once you put your mind to it bss enti ma tbeen ttrkeeena!!

Malak: Why do you want me to leave him so bad ghada? You know hu inshallah byt5rj b3d shahreen w b3deen hes gonna work in his dads company y3nii e7na w'93na inshallah ykoun mashii b3d ma ytw'6f y56bnii 3la 6oul enti t3rfeen ma agdr at5la mna! 

Ghada: Don't marry who you love; love who you marry. Remember that Malak, hu al8rar raj3lk enti but choose whats best for you ana bss ga3da agoulik kitha cause i care about you wallah no other reasons you know that so fkrii zeen zaii ma gal abouk est5eerii kl shaii raj3lk take your time babe, yallah ashoufk b3deen inshallah.

She made me feel bad mn jid ma a3rf esh aswii al7een. I can't leave sul6an I can't do it just the thought of it is making me go crazy.

Most of my whatsapps were from him and it made me cry to see he wrote me everyday even after I called him gbl 3 weeks.

Sultan: 

Malak weenik?

Malaaaaaaaaak ya maalaaak

ملاك

Babee

And it goes on and on with voice notes and love texts.

Malak: I got my phone back Sultan, but im gonna close my phone for a while.

I closed my phone before he got a chance to reply. I seriously need to clear my head.

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Chapter 4

I slept all day still feeling sick and my mom didn't even ask about me Amy came to wake me up a9art eni aru7 to the hospital I didn't feel like it but I had too.

'Malak Alx' the nurse called my name

Doctor: feekii eyhh ya Malak?

Before I even got a chance to speak Amy spoke.

Amy: Dictor, Malak doesn't eat and she stays in her bed all day! She doesn't get up or do anything! And she has diabetes! 

Doctor: Eyh da ya Malak malik ma btakulii? Ma bt3rafeesh elli ma byakul w m3ah sukar ma ygdrsh yt7ml w yd5l b '3aybouba! 

Ma 3rft wsh agoul cause I know it's true It's a dangerous thing to have low blood sugar w ana ahmlt.

Doctor: al7een ba2a bn3mlk t7leel dm w btg3di hna blmustshfa l 7d bukra 3shan nt2kd enna ma ynzlsh el sukar. 

Malak:Ok 

I told Amy to call fai 3shan tnam 3ndi for today

Amy:Fai, Malaks here in the hospital the doctor says they're gonna make her stay for the night just to make sure her blood sugar doesnt go low again can you come mafeeh madam wla baba

Fai:I'm coming now!which hospital?

-

Fai:Malak what happened ya 7aywana you could've called me mn awl ma 7seti enk t3abana! Mama w baba ma y7akun I'm always gonna be there for you

Malak: fai I just miss him so much..

Fai: do you know his number?

Malak: yes yes yes!

I called him 2 times w lsa ma rad fai told me to wait he'll call back after 20 minutes he finally called back

Sultan: Alo?

Malak: Sultaaannnn!!!!!! Wa7shtniii sultaaann

Sultaan:Malaaak? Malaak weenik 3ni bss mshtaglk ya malak lii thlath ashour ma sm3t 9outik 34aab wallah. 

Galha w 9outa yg63 k2na shwai w y9ee7

Malak: I miss you so much Sultan wallah I do bss wsh nswii

Sultan:6ayb Malak enti ga3da t7akeeni mn jwal meen? 

Malak: mn jwal Fai.

The machines beeping sounds can be heard and it shows that im not home.

Sultan: Malak entii weenk al7een?

Malak: Um blmustshfa...

Sultan: Leeeh blmustshfaa feek shaii? 

Malak: La ma feeni shaii bs nzl al blood pressure la tsheel hm

Sultan: Keef ma asheel hm Malak leeh ma t7af'6een 3la 97tik? Lazm takleen zeen tra its dangerous ma ar'9a tkounen bl mustsfa Malaak! 

Malak: Wallah im fine bs 3shan t3bana fa ma aklt wallah bntbh 3la 97tii.

The doctor knocked on the door and walked in.

Malak: Sultan al dictor ja I have to go.

Sultan: 6ayb babe a7bk.

Malak: 7ta ana wallah.

I hung up and listened to what the doctor  had to say, he said that my blood sugar is indeed very low so they added nutrients to my IV and he left.

-

3 weeks have passed since the last time I've talked to sultan i really do miss him,

But nothig exciting really happened in those three weeks, bss mn aljam3a llbeet ll beet lljam3a. Reema my cousin is over today she says I'm being a 'nafsiya' w lazm a'3yr jaw I seriously don't feel like it I wore my sweatpants and a plain white t-shirt and tied my hair I didn't even bother to put makeup on since it's only reema

Reema: Honey I'm homeeee! Wsh Hal wajh est'3frallah!

Malak: k2nk awl mrra tshoufenii kithaa!

Reema: bs wajhik mfga3 w a9fr mrra n7aftii 7ram t5rben jsmik!

Malak: 9ayra ma asht'hi shay 9dg mnsda nafsii 3an el akl

Reema: 3shani 5n ni6la3! Nru7 Tao you love it w adri you won't say no please 3shani?

Malak: ugh reema wallah mu bkefii 

Reema: I'll call her ma 3aleek bs enti '3yri jaw! 

Reema called my mom 7awlt t8n3ha enu ni6la3 she said no at first then she was like 'la t6wlun'

It's was 6:30 pm

I quickly got dressed and applied simple makeup although Eli yru7un henak ytksh5un but I didn't feel like it this time.

I begged reema to give me her phone to call sultan 'malak tlgenh nasak w mu dariii 3anik stop thinking about him'

I stayed quiet I knew it was true or maybe convincing my self it wasn't.

-

It's was 9:00 when reema dropped me off at my house I was my mom and dad in the leaving room 

Malaks dad: malak t3ali nbi n7akek

Malaks mom: malak jay-

Malak: smiii amriii ya a'3la ma amlikkk Ana asfaa mama wallahh I started crying A lot.

It's the first time my mom talks to me in 5 months it's good to hear her voice again.

When I stopped crying mama kamlt what she was saying 

 Malaks mom: malak jayenk 56ab.

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Chapter 3

Present time

Ana bntii tswii kitha?

Malak's POV

Ugh not having my phone with me was torture today, thank god I only had one exam so straight after I finished Ghada offered to drop me off so I went with her.

We stopped by starbucks to get some frappuccinos, then she dropped me back home. I was dead tired and missing my phone so I shouted "Mama rj3t!" hoping she heard me from the living room, I didn't even look back I just headed to my room.

I opened my bedroom door and hung my abaya not looking around my room at first so as soon as I turned around I was surprised to see my mom sitting on my bed looking at me.

"Halla mama wsh ga3da tsween hena?" I asked.

She didn't respond she just stared at me looking dissapointed, I felt confused until I looked down at her hand. 

My phone

Malaks mom: Meen ss?

Malak:I can't explain..

Malaks mom: e7na ma rbenak 3ala kithaa! You're 20 mu bzr t5ounen th8atna feek? 

Malak: mama bfhmik!

Malaks mom: ma 3ndi klam m3ak law sma7ti ma t7akeni la enti bnti wla Ana a3rfik.

She left.

What have I done.

Malak's P.O.V 

Malaks dad: esh hatha el9ra5 esh 9ayr?

Malaks mom: mu 9ayr shay

Malaks dad: kul hatha el9ra5 w mu 9ayr shay? W jawal Malak hatha? Leeh m3ak

Malaks mom: bntik..

And I told him everything malaks dad is calm always w lma y39b mu y9ar5 yskt.

Back to malaks P.O.V

5ala9 mafi sultan? I can't live like this I need him!,r7t looking for my laptop I hope she didn't take it 

I logged in on twitter 7akeet sultan 

MalakAlx: sultaaan mama found out she took my phone w everything except my laptop w etha dg a7d 3ala jawli la trd! Please

I waited for him to reply

10 minutes 

20 minutes  

I heard a knock on the door

Malak: meen?

Malaks mom: eft7ii!

I quickly logged of off twitter and closed my laptop 

Malaks mom: elli swetii Ana ma ra7 askt lah w I'm gonna take everything for god knows when but now give it to me w mafi 6al3at jam3a bet bet jam3a! And forget going to London blejaza with our cousins 

Malak: but we planned this forever me and reema! Mama don't do this to me!!!!!

She kept silent and left.

Ana 9dg esh saweet. 

It's was still 7:00 p.m and I didn't eat anything all day I wasn't even hungry  I just wanted to sleep and I took some sleeping pills it didn't help should I call fai and tell her? 97 I don't have my phone tomorrow's Thursday I'll tell her.

 

I finally stopped overthinking and drifted my way to sleep

-

I woke up the next day with a massive headache! I couldn't even move I have diabetes and I haven't been eating well.Meshal came to my room to wake me up he saw how pale I looked

Meshal: youma malak feek shay? Leeh wajhik kitha? Ma aklti shay 97! Enti leeh tswen bnfsik kitha? 3arfa feek sukar w ma y9l7 97tik ahm shay!

I couldn't concentrate to what he was saying because of my headache 

Malak: Meshal mgdr at7rak just go get my pills w gul l mama enu ma ra7 adawm ask amy she knows where they are

Meshal: okay bs trak 7ywana 3arfa enk lazm taklen

 

Malak: Meshal Mali 5lgik so go get the pills!

Meshal came back with my diabetes kit he took my finger and pricked it to check my blood sugar and it came out low, very very low.

Having low blood sugar is so dangerous and so much worse than having high blood sugar, Meshal gama6 w 6l3 mn al'3urfa bsr3a rj3 jayb a cookie.

Meshal: KLII AL7EEN MALAK! Your blood sugar marraa naazzll!!

I ate the cookie bdoun nfs w i felt my heart breaking when I realized that Amy came to see whats wrong and my mom didnt even bother. 

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Chapter 2

*Don't be confused cause this chapter takes place before her mom found out, maybe a couple months before chapter 1.

I woke up feeling refreshed, it's Saturday and im not sure what my family has planned for today. I went into my bathroom and took a long shower, changed into some sweats and a normal t-shirt and headed downstairs.

I was busy sending Sultan texts telling him to get up when I bumped into Lamia.

"Hiii 5alaa Malaak!" She said excitedly.

"Halla, Allaaah jayeena al7ilween alyoum." I said as I stepped into the breakfast area and found My mom, my dad, Fai, and Mishal. 

"Ee wallah." Agreed my dad.

I sat down next to Fai and started chatting with her while munching on my breakfast. My phone buzzed with a text from Sultan.

A3oooth bella ma t5aleen alwa7d ynaam! He sent

I replied with wsh 4a alnoumaaa! Agoul goum bss goum, ma 9leet fajr w by24en '6hur! 

Inshallah 3mtii ra7 agoum w a9alii al7een he sent 

I was smiling down at my phone when Mishal said laughing."Alebtsama shaga wjha al e5tt!"  

Everyone starting laughing at the ridiculous smile on my face and I said coming up with an excuse fast." Ee lw tshoufun wsh Ghada trslii bss!" 

They laughed once more knowing my best friend Ghada was crazy, except Fai she didn't laugh she winked at me knowing that it's Sultan.

Ever since we were young Fai and I have been close so she knows about Sultan. She knows all about him, how he's in his last year of Uni and he's gonna come propose when he enrolls in his fathers company, how he's 23 and most importantly how he's madly inlove with me.

I was told we were going to my grandparents house I'm not really close with my dad's side but since I haven't seen them in awhile I had to go.

Sultan:6ayb tgwmeeni w kl shaii w ttrkeen jwalk? 

6ayb rdii

Babe 6fsht

Esh ra7 tsween alyoum 

M 

A

L

A

K

I miss you.

I laughed at his stupidity and replied.

Heyyy

Fai w lamia jayeen w ensh'3alt m3ahumm:(

7ta Ana I miss you wallaahh!

W I'll leave to my grandparents house in like an hour and I have to get dressed 

Sultan: butttt do you really have to go:(? Don't.Leave.Me.

 

Lol he was being childish.

Me: sultaan!,ma agdr wallah mn zman ma shft'hum w lazm aslm w ma ra7 a6wil enshallah

Sultan: 5ala9 call me lma trj3een and don't forget please!

Me: enshallah I won't yallah bye,I love youu

Sultan: I love you moree

Sultan's P.O.V

I thank god everyday for having her in my life I'm blessed I wouldn't imagine life without her Allah y5leeha li.

(sultan has two younger sisters called Lulwa and sara their both 5 year olds, and a brother Abdulaziz he's 19)

Abdulaziz: ya5ee wallah enhaa muzaa!

Sultan: ma tba6ill 7rkatikk 4ii? Tl3b 3ala bnat elnas o8smbellah enik bzrr!

Abdulaziz: ent wsh d5lik? 5lik m3 7beebtik a7ssnlik

Yes he knows about Malak.

Sultan: la tjeeb 6areeha 3ala lsnaik fahmm! Malak ashrf mnhum b 1000 mraa 

Abdulaziz: wsh feek ya5e nmz7 m3ak

Sultan: mz7ik hatha mu m3aay

 

6ab3an ma z3alt bs enghrt kef y8arn Malak b elbnat elly yrgmhum kil youm.

Back to malaks P.O.V 

Ughh a5eraan were homee! 

I changed to my comfy pj's and layed on my bed,until I almost forgot to call sultan

Sultan: ahlan ahlan,rja3tii elbeet?

Me: ewaa gabil shwy raj3aa,w ent weenk ez3aj 3ndkk!

Sultaan:ee m3 el3yaal yl3bun fifa b6l3 bras a7kek estnii

Me:haha okay!

Sultan: kithaa tsm3een kwais?

Me: ewa kwais,elzbda kefk

Sultan:sma3t 9outik esh tbeeni akoun?akeed bkoun as3ad wa7d bl dnya.

Me:a7bk.

Sultan: Ana akthr wallah.

I talked to Sultan for a little while then he had to get back to the guys and it was getting late so I decided to sleep.

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Chapter 1

*This story is purely fiction.

I don't wanna be rude so let me introduce myself before we get into the story.

My name is Malak, Im 20 and in my second year of college, Im pretty content with my life. I have an older sister Fai; she's 26 married and a mother of a beautiful little angel named Lamia. Then there's Mishal my younger brother we get along pretty well but we have our bad moments. To be honest Im seriously blessed with my life, well let me rephrase that, I was blessed, everything took a wrong turn in my life at one point and i just don't know how to fix it, let;s get into the story and you'll know exactly what I mean..

"6ayb lazm adrs 5la9 bs tlhenii!"I said to Sultan over the phone.

"Meen galk la tdrseen? Edrsii bss bg3d m3aak." he replied.

"Noo ma agdr arakizz kitha w 93b pleasee!" I pleaded him to hang up so I can finally study zay alnas.

"5laa9 5la9 asfeen yallah edrsii w enshallah you get good grades w la tnseen tomorrow i'll call you w rdii." He said.

"Enshallah, yallah I have alot to study, byee love you!" I said.

"I love you too bye!" he replied and I hung up feeling giddy and happy like always after talking to him.

And finally I started studying I had so much to study! It was 11pm it was late already I had to wake up early the next day aw9l Mishal to his school. When I finally finished studying 2am!

-

6:45am SHIT! 

"Maaalaaaak I'm late etha ma 5l9tii b6l3!" Mishal was yelling from down stairs.

I ran to the bathroom did  my business, washed my face, got dressed and ran downstairs.

"Ana blsiyara la tt25reen!" Mishal shouted from at the door.

"Wait w el f6our?" I asked.

"Ef6rii blsiyara."Mishal said.

Eff mafii wagt it's almost 7!

"Ughhh okay!" I shouted and sprinted down the steps.

-

Wa9lt Mishal to his school and went to my university but wait Sultan didn't call me mu mn 3wad'h!

So I checked my pockets for my phone, I checked my bag and I checked everywhere I couldn't find it. No no no no why is this happening to me ugh!

- Malak's Moms POV -

Ya allah esh hathii jwalha yrn mn al9baa7!

Incoming call: SS 

Rdeet

"I called you five times leeh ma trdeeen??" Sultan said into the phone.

I stayed silent on her end.

"Ga3d a7akeek Malaak feek shaii?" He said sounding worried.

W gflt bwjha. I was shocked, very shocked.

Ana bntii tswii kitha? 

How'd you like it? It's short the upcoming chapters will be longer inshallah! 

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Prologue

One day can change everything, and that's exactly what happened to Malak. She loved her life, her parents, her university and her boyfriend, she had it all or so she thought she did. Malak was so sure her and her boyfriend of four years were gonna get married, oh she was wrong, she still loved him and he still loved her but there was something in the way.